I don’t have to worry?
I did not realize that I don’t have to worry and be anxious about everything or that “worry is optional” before I came to support meetings. My life was worry and fear. I was truly amazed to see people, whose lives and troubles were worse than mine, laughing and smiling and enjoying life! I wanted what these people had the very first meeting I went to.
In support meetings I learned that worrying about people or things I cannot change is useless and a giant waste of time. I learned that worry is not love. Of course hearing that and doing it are two different things! I had a hard time giving up worrying. I did not know how to stop worrying.
I hear in support meetings different ways that people give up worrying. Some make a God box and write down their worry on a piece of paper and put it in the box. Some people write in a journal. Some picture themselves giving their problem to the God. Some people walk or run until they felt better. I found that picturing my Savior with outstretched hands and seeing myself placing my worries and fears into His hands helped. Sometimes I have to picture myself also crawling into His loving hands. My worry always goes away when I do this, at least for a short time. When the worry returns, I do it again. As I do this, I can live worry free for longer and longer periods of time.
I am learning that I can be happy no matter what is going on around me. “Pain in inevitable, but worry is optional”.
I got caught up in worry, anxiety and fear while living with and around my loved ones with addictions. A downward spiral left me feeling these negative emotions continually. This went on for years. I never felt the spirit so I thought that God had left me behind. I believed that God only spoke to special people – like prophets.
I did not realize that I could not feel the spirit while feeling strong negative emotions. Heavenly Father knew that I was not receiving His inspiration so He put things right in front of my face that showed me that He did love me. He gave me a friend that encouraged me to go to 12 step meetings and finally took me with her.
As I began to heal and to feel peace, joy, happiness and serenity in my life I also began to feel the spirit again. I realized that God had never left me, that He was always there and walking beside me. It was the strong negative emotions that had kept me from feeling His gentle promptings.
As time went by and I gained spiritual experience I learned how to recognize inspiration from God. I learned that sometimes He lets me figure things out on my own and learn by experience. I learned to ask questions throughout the day and to trust the thoughts and feelings that come into my mind and to follow guidance quickly. I learned patience and to have peace in my life as I realized God always answers my prayers in His time.
Revelation is a gift from God that I need while I am here on this earth. It is available for everyone. I need to take time each day to be holy so that I can continue to gain spiritual experience and receive revelation. I want to always recognize that God is walking right beside me.
Does God care about me?
Fear, worry and anxiety kept me from feeling God’s love, from feeling the spirit and from receiving revelation. As I have learned to let these negative feelings go, through the atonement of Jesus Christ, I have again been able to feel the spirit and recognize revelation.
Through revelation I have learned to understand my loved ones better, to look at them with compassion instead of bitterness and fear. Through revelation I have learned about my weaknesses and received help to overcome them or gifts to compensate. Through revelation I have received help to know what to do in my life, what some of my mission in life is and help to work toward those goals. Through revelation I have found that instead of thinking of life as miserable and looking forward with fear, worry and anxiety, I can look at life as an adventure and look forward with joy and anticipation at what the future will bring. This healing in my life has come through the atonement of Jesus Christ, which I am so thankful for!