My unacceptable behavior.
I find it very easy to react with the same unacceptable behavior that is being given to me. If I’m faced with insults I’m tempted to respond with insults. If anger is directed towards me I want to respond with anger. Sometimes it’s so hard to turn the other cheek.
In support groups I heard others talking about choosing how they will act when faced with confrontation. They talk about how they want to “detach with love” and choose their actions based on their own values, not on how someone else is behaving.
I am still not perfect at choosing my actions instead of reacting, but I am improving. When I choose a gentle action instead of reacting to what others say or do I feel better about myself.
I can “let it begin with me”. I do not have to accept unacceptable behavior and I can start by not accepting unacceptable behavior in myself.
I am thankful for support meetings.
I am learning that support meetings are a way of life. They teach me how to apply the Savior’s atonement to my life in practical ways.
I learn these practical lessons from the steps and principles and also from listening to and watching how others apply the atonement to their lives. Support meetings keep me present, looking around me more clearly and with more understanding. They keep me from wallowing in self-pity and help me see my blessings. The meetings remind me that happiness and gratitude are attitudes that I can develop. I think everyone would benefit from attending support meetings!
I find that I quickly fall back into old habits and weaknesses if I begin to think that I no longer need to go to meetings. It is harder to grow and learn when I am only listening to my own thoughts. I am a much happier, healthier person when I can share and listen to others in meetings.
I know that I can help newcomers in my support meetings. If everyone stopped coming after finishing the 12 steps or principles, then there would be no one for the newcomers to listen and learn from. I am so thankful that there are long time members in the support groups I attend. What a gift of experience, faith and hope they are for me! I learn so much from newcomers. They often say something that helps me deal with my own situations. They help me remember where I used to be and show me how much I’ve grown. Newcomers bring a breath of fresh air and new ideas and thoughts to meetings.
I am so thankful for support group meetings. They keep me sane.
I choose respect!
I want to respect others, even my loved ones with addictions and other behavioral problems. But, often I find myself feeling resentment and even contempt for my loved ones from watching or being the target of irrational and irresponsible behavior. I know that resentment or contempt will show in my words, attitude and actions even if I’m trying very hard to be civil and even tempered.
My loved ones have a battered ego and low self-esteem from struggling with their addictions. I know their behavior is often because of their guilt and confusion. All people have good qualities that I can focus on. When I rid myself of resentment and contempt and have good feelings for my loved ones, then this comes through in my attitude, words and behavior. They can feel my respect and belief in them and this may help raise their self-esteem.
I can choose my own responses and attitude. I choose respect and love.
My mind can go round and round about what others have done or said. Before I know it I have lost my happiness, peace and joy. I start sinking into a downward spiral of unhappiness, anger, fear and anxiety.
I know that I am the only one I can control. Sometimes I am amazed at how often I forget this and start worrying about others. My joy and peace of mind is in my own control. I can choose to stop, pray for God’s help and to feel His love. I can listen to uplifting music and choose other uplifting activities. If I turn my mind around then I begin an upward spiral to happiness, peace and serenity.
I choose what I think about. When I withdraw my mind from what others do or have done or said I can instead focus on what I am doing. I can decide not to react to challenging words or actions. My happiness and peace is of great worth. I will guard it with all my might.
Some days I am sad and despondent. I am tired of trying to live a happy life with the chaos and trials and addictions around me.
Sometimes I am just tired of trying. But my Savior’s grace is always near. When I pray and tell God everything I’m feeling, I feel my Savior’s protective and loving arms around me. I know that I am worthy of peace and serenity. If I pray and tell God what I am feeling then He does for me what I cannot do for myself. He lifts me up so I can see and notice the many blessings in my life.
I look around and see the beauty of the world God has created all about me. I realize again that through the atonement of Christ and through His grace I can find joy. There is peace and serenity to find amid the chaos that surrounds me.