Writing was the start of healing

Writing heals

I used to feel so guilty about my past. I have made so many mistakes. I have let so many people down especially myself and my children. I thought of myself as weak and useless and sinful. I had low self-esteem and didn’t think of myself as a very good person. Writing was the start of my healing.

I wrote down all my resentments and everything I could remember in my life that was negative. I also wrote down all the positive things in my life that I could remember. After I finished writing everything down I shared it with someone I trusted. Amazingly, the person I shared it with didn’t hate me after I told them about my past. I was able to realize that I was doing the best that I could in my life at the time.

This exercise has been amazing and eye-opening. Writing has helped me to forgive myself and to not feel guilty about my past. As I forgave myself I began to accept and even love myself. I am able to see some of my good qualities. Peace and wellbeing are replacing the guilt and fear that used to be my constant companions. My self-confidence is growing.

Low self-esteem – I don’t like myself

Guilt

I am so afraid to think about my past and my many failures. There are many things I am ashamed of and do not want to think about. All this underlying guilt affects my self-esteem. I do not like myself very much. I think of myself as weak and fairly useless.

Even though I am afraid, I am determined to become a healthy happy person. I slowly began to write about my past. Over time I wrote many pages about my past failures and successes. I found the courage to share these writings with a trusted person. This writing and sharing turned out to be truly amazing! I learned many things:

  • I realized that I have always done the best I could with where I was at and with what I knew at the time.
  • I learned that I have many weaknesses I did not realize I had, including: self-will, self-deception, etc.
  • I learned that I have many strengths, including: persistence, compassion, a good listening ear, etc.
  • I learned to like myself.
  • My self-confidence and self-esteem increased.
  • I accepted myself.