It is easy for me to get stuck in a downward spiral of fear, anxiety, worry and isolation. I get stuck mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Because of the constant strong negative emotions I cannot hear or feel impressions of the spirit or feel God’s love. I start feeling alone and lost and afraid.
Through support groups I am learning more about the atonement of Jesus Christ and how to use the atonement in my life in practical, hands on ways. I am learning to let my negative emotions go. I am learning to share myself with others and to listen to others. At support meetings I often hear others talk about the same things I am feeling. When I can choose to go to meetings and not stay isolated I know that I am not alone. I am learning to trust God and to feel peace and joy.
With the help of the steps and principles, I am learning to use in my life, I don’t ever have to stay stuck or in a downward spiral ever again. Through the atonement of Jesus Christ I can be forever learning and growing. I feel so blessed to have found support groups and want to share this treasure with others around me!
Sometimes I start slipping back into old ways of denial and not living in the present. A lot of pain returns and stays around. I start asking myself negative questions. Why do these things happen to me? Why can’t my loved one give me the love and support I need?
At these times I have found it very helpful to attend more than one support meeting a week. When I do this I am reminded to live in the present instead of living in denial. I am reminded that feelings are good – that I am alive and feelings remind me that I am alive. I remember to feel my feelings even if they hurt and to go through them so that I can let them go. I am reminded that I tend to turn to people for love and support that cannot give me that love and support. As I relax and accept these truths I can stop blaming, let go of the pain and find others who can and will support me. It is unreasonable to expect that one person can give me all that I need. It is OK to seek support from multiple people. I am reminded to reach out and not isolate. I am reminded of the power of the atonement of Jesus Christ.
Making mistakes or slipping back into old ways is normal and human. I need the atonement, reminders and support from those who are going through similar problems to help me. I guess that’s why I’ve been going to support groups for 6 years now and have no plan on stopping! I want to keep the happiness, growth and change I have in my life now.
I often fight feeling of powerless and stuck. We are children of God and we can choose to act to improve our circumstances. We are not to always be silent and just acted upon.
Support groups are one way I can choose to act to improve myself. Support groups have helped me learn how to apply the atonement to my life and to my circumstances. This is a great adventure that I am so thankful for. I am thankful for the growth and help Heavenly Father blesses us with through the spouse and family support groups. To me this program is great evidence of God’s love specifically for us as loved ones of those with addictions.