I will no longer hide

Today I choose to be present

“One day at a time” reminds me to live in the present. Feeling guilty about the past and worrying about the future takes so much time away from me and doesn’t let me enjoy each precious moment of now. I will no longer hide.

There is so much in my past that I do not remember. My family will get together and talk about things in the past and often I have no recollection of the event at all. I think it is because I learned very young to hide and not be present. There were lots of scary things in my young life and I learned to hide to be safe.

Hiding does not serve me very well now. I want to enjoy my life and feel joy and remember all my moments. When bad things happen, my first inclination is still to hide, but I do know better now. Often, when I take a close look at the “bad” thing, I can see that it is just an event. I can choose to not blow it out of proportion. I can choose to not be a victim and to let it go. I don’t want to hide or run away from my feelings anymore because I know if I do that, then I am also choosing to not feel happiness and joy. Every day is a new day and I am the captain of this day. Today I choose to be present.